In 1984 at the age of 19, I was living in a squat and was a prospect for a motorcycle gang. My life was on a downhill trend, but I thought I was on top of the world. It was an illusion and one night God showed me how far I had fallen. As I sat against the wall in my room in the dark, unwillingly reviewing my life, God showed me that I was a hopeless case. I remember crying out in tears, ‘God help me, God help me!’ and God did help me.
To my surprise, on May 15th 1984, at 7.30pm I found myself at Bristol’s Ashton Gate stadium listening to Billy Graham. For the first time, I could see clearly what I was before God; what Jesus had done for me; and the consequence of a refusal to repent and believe. That night I stepped out in faith, repenting and accepting Christ as my Lord and Saviour.
Since then, it has been a privilege to learn how to serve God with Fiona, my better half, in our home church, through our secular work in teaching and nursing, and helping at camps, Beach Missions and open-airs too. It has also been a joy to see our children join in the OAM Beach Mission teams and helping at camps over the years.
During 2017 I shared with Fiona my growing burden before the Lord to serve Him directly and relinquish secular work. We committed it to prayer and saw God point to the OAM. Despite this, I felt very unworthy, knowing brothers more earnest and spiritually qualified than I. For months, I prayed about it, but the feelings just grew more intense.
The tipping point came after receiving Andy Banton’s book, ‘There is still much to do’. The chapter, ‘Obeying the Call’, prompted me to revisit Isaiah 6. Hallelujah! The Lord wasn’t looking for worthiness, but willingness! I know I will never be worthy, but I am willing to obey the call to serve our Lord and Master. Brothers and sisters, will you please include Fiona and me in your prayers. We feel certainly feel the need for the Lord’s help as we enter this new chapter of our lives.